Friday, 26 July 2019

Kaabel

That is how the world is.' Kaabel thought to himself.
Not that he had never heard of that before, it was just that he realised it and it went deep down his understanding. Standing alone amidst the woods in late autumn, contemplating, observing nature, this fact dawned on him.

Kaabel was dejected with life and he had multiple reasons to be depressed. Firstly, he had lost his job due to economic turmoil. Secondly, this had spiralled into various other problems, he had become impatient so much so, that his girl friend broke up with him. Friends were few and had distanced a bit owing to their busy schedules. Parents seemed to be sarcastic towards him and his approach to life.

All this was in stark contrast to the time when his career was on a high. Everyone who was a critic now was an admirer then. Kaabel felt lonely. He felt like ending it all. He walked to solitary places searching solace. Once while he was at a place with barren trees around him, he observed that birds flew away from those dry trees. Perhaps the same birds nested in those trees when the trees were green. 'That is how the world is.' Kaabel thought to himself.

He felt one with the lonely, desolated, barren trees. He discovered some solace. He stood there contemplating when he felt a connect with the trees and communication happened. The trees conveyed a message to Kaabel. The largest and the oldest tree said, 'Although we are barren and feel lonely, we stand strong. What you see today as dry and dead will be green, growing and generous to the world again, soon. Kaabel, all you need to do is survive and stand strong.'

Kaabel hugged his saviour and let his emotions flow free. After that motivational session with his new found friends, he stood strong and decided to be generous towards the world rather than being bitter.

Tuesday, 23 July 2019

First Crush

I had just turned 16 and shifted to a new locality where I saw this cute girl about a year or two younger than me. I realised how sweet sixteen makes you fall in love at first sight.
I used to cycle around, looking at her at the window and occasionally I would dare to smile. I hoped she would smile back, or come down so that we could talk. The best thing about her were her eyes. They were beautiful, they had a certain melancholy to them. I started smiling at her more often. She never returned my smile. I knew she was hard to impress.

One day, she stunned me. She was waiting for me to come out. We looked at each other. Our eyes looked into each others'. She was ready. She flew a paper plane towards me. I went absolutely crazy at God's generosity.
I cycled full speed to pick the best airplane in the world. I unfolded the plane.

It read,
"I am 15 and married to the 51 year old man who you think is my father. I like the way you children play. Stop smiling at me and have no hopes."

I looked up to where she was. Tears rolled down my eyes and she wiped hers. For the first time, she gave me a smile. My heart crushed that day. I realised what freedom was. I wanted to help her.
It was far beyond me....my first crush.